Thinking back on my life I realize that it hasn't been peaches and cream. With this thought in my mind I would like to think and believe that it has shaped me into the person that I currently am which is ME. Knowing this I wonder if this means I am the best me or is it a continual process to get to the best me? I grew up in a very dysfunctional family and at times a very toxic environment but, honestly who doesn't??? I now wonder if I would have been raised in another family or culture: would I be able to succeed in my life...
We all have events in our past that help shape not only our actions,but our feelings, beliefs and our dreams. With this said I feel that there are two pathways in life to pick from. The first path is bitterness,anger,hate,self-loathing,self-pity and resentment. The second path is love,laughter, awareness,happiness,forgiveness and eagerness to do better in our own individual lives.I personally have chosen the second path for the most part of my life. I know that at times I have fallen quite short of how I was raised to be: strong, independent,loving, kind, stubborn, forgiving and most of all happy.
I feel that the big guys upstairs will never give me to much to handle. Even though at times I feel that I am drowning in my mistakes or struggles. He hears us and knows our needs. You might say that he is always one step ahead of us. We need to be willing to listen with all sincerity and a humbleness to be guided in that portion of our lives. Now, by saying that, I know that this belief system is not for everyone to believe in nor do I think that you should just because I do. Do what you feel is right in your own way and I still think that he or whoever or whatever thing greater than you will guide your thoughts and actions when you are struggling!
I have recently been bombarded with things from my past or things from others past that have either directly impacted me or someone I love. So, I just have to put this out here. When we choose our own personal pathways remember who you are and what you stand for always. Yes, we will fail, we will stumble, cry, yell, and often not have the will to get back on our paths. When you are at this point in life know that I have been there and I will always do my best to give you a hand back up. Don't forget how wonderful and precious you are to me, but also to those around you. I believe that I can change the world not only with my hands, but also my heart...
