So, Mother's Day is hard for me now and I dislike going to church, because it is a constant reminder of what I am missing. and they always sing my moms favorite song and I end up in tears and this year I will pass. I don't need a building to remind me of her, I know she lives in my heart always. I know that there are a few of us that have joined the club of mom's in heaven and some of those mom's might not of been my own, but were just were like mine growing up. My sweet friends thank you for sharing them with me! To my friends that have had a recent loss remember everything she said and you will soon feel it in your own heart and if you listen you still can hear her. For those that have lost a child or sister remember that they are needed somewhere else more than here.
To my own moms: my birth mom, my mom and to my sweet mother in law...Thank you for loving me at my most unlovable moments. Which have been quite a few over the past 35 years.
I stand in awe of my birth mother to this day and I often don't mention her at all. It's not that she is forgotten I just don't remember her besides the sacrifice that she did for my brother and I. One day I will get the courage to search and find out if she is alive, but I don't think that I could get my hopes up for an ending I already know in my heart. I am amazed that she had the strength to do what she did and I can't imagine the heartache and loss she must of felt. I can't leave my babies for more than a few days without that ache in my heart overtaking me. I always tell my husband I don't know if I would have had the strength at that moment to let us go. I hope that I can claim that I have some little part of her in me and that my girls will too. I hope that one day I will meet her either here or in heaven. To thank her because without that sacrifice I wouldn't be here as a mom to my three little ones. Thank you Josefina and I truly hope that I live up to half of the example you set and that I have made you proud.
Mom, with tears in my eyes,even after three long years, I can't help but wish you were here. I need you more than ever it seems that I am so lost at times. Thank you for adopting us and for raising us as your own. I know that we all gave you a run for your money but really it was the boys ideas. I remember when people would ask how it felt to be adopted and if you were my mom. Not once did you ever make me feel like I wasn't your own. Heck you told me I was white and that I look like you..Boy, was I fooled! Did you know that I am brown and look nothing like you..I was shocked to learn it too! I know that our past was rough and I wish that it hadn't taken so many years to get to be your friend also. Thank you for riding my rear and expecting only the best that I had in my heart. I might not always live up to the expectation but I know I can when needs be. Your examples of love, hard work, forgiveness, laughter, music, and so many more things. Have helped shape me into being I am. I know your faults, I know why we fought all the time I was growing up and that was to make sure I became a good person. I wish I could say that I take it all back those moments of anger or hurt, but I don't. It has hopefully made me the woman and mother that I am. Thank you for loving me and guiding me for all those years. I love and miss you terribly..Til we meet again in gods arms.
Last but not least to my mother in law..which by the way seems wrong to say since, she is so much like my mom. I remember my mom telling me that it would have been so much harder to have me so far away if I hadn't had you here. She always told me how much she loved the fact that you took me in with open arms and made sure her baby was okay. I love you and appreciate the fact you raised a good fella. You always state to me that I am like your own and I never doubt that. I love you with all my heart and thanks for being a wonderful mom and grandmother.
I love motherhood, it's something I never dreamed of having or wanting. I now can't even imagine not having the three greatest blessing/angels in my life. I think that I have finally found something that I am not only good at, but proud to be.. a MOM. The short and simple word fills my heart with so much love and I can't imagine not being here at this moment in my life. I know that I wouldn't be here without the loving support of my loving husband, brothers, family and friends. Love you all and once again HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY TO ALL!!